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I'm a guy from Sweden who loves life and matte paper with lots of colours and a warm soft blanket on an autumn morning or a summer night, moments of bliss, and vegetables and music and sunshine on a rainy day

My art varies a lot I guess. I want to capture and reflect my feelings of a moment. Depth in details. I'm learning about myself through art but also from being with other people. I love words and languages but I do not always like to speak. I also listen. To people and to the sound of the forest. I love spending a lot of time in nature and it's comforting beauty. I also like to watch the city and it's movement and enjoy moving along to it in my own rhythm

I try my very best to be a good friend and an honest person both to myself and towards others and highly value these traits in other people too. I try to engage in expressing my feelings and thoughts to the best of my ability and I try to be a good listener. People who have a hostile attitude can make me angry and sometimes I get stressed up over that kind of behaviour. If I am relaxed in myself and my environment I can be playful and creative. I don't want to grow up although I think I'll have to some day.. although secretly.. I will always be a playful little kid on the inside ^^
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Yeah. Weird week this one. This is really getting personal. Better not say too much.

Here's something positive - my doctoral visits are moving towards me getting a diagnosis. I almost don't know how to begin to explain what this means to me, it puts my whole life into a new perspective. My mind says you should be worried about this diagnose, but it lets me relax. I find it easier for me to understand my past behaviour, and also how I can relate to the me of today. Actually, there are ways to be fully rehabilitated from this disorder they say, and I'm starting treatment sometime in December. Thanks doc. Already seeing betterment. Looking forward to becoming fully healthy again.

So a few days ago I came into contact with drugs. As I momentarily happened to be in a weak state of mind, thoughts naturally wandered towards "hey let's take the opportunity and alleviate these feelings".. and just the way I've mentally trained myself to do, I took a step back, slowed myself down, and thought it through. Carefully weighed pros and cons. Came to the wise conclusion that I'd rather be in my natural state of mind, and that in order to be able to understand myself throughout a day, a month, a year, my life, I'll always rather do this than to get drunk or high or whatever. All my natural feelings are much more important. I want a clear understanding of the world. I need this where I'm going. I have this set for the rest of my life and I'm a hundred days in now.. about twenty thousand to go!

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Got the dentists appointment switched for some regular ole drilling instead of pulling a whole new tooth out. I'm saving that one for a sunny day!

Looks like I'm going to be in class again next week. I've signed up for a light introduction to permaculture design and two other small courses, one in pickling and one about dirt/earth/soil/whatsitcalled(?). It feels good to start studying again and especially things which I'm deeply interested in. As I've had some spare time to myself for a while now, I'm very happy to start learning with others again.

Also went ahead and travelled to meet my mother. She's sweet and caring and I just love her ^ ^

And I met with new people. Amongst them the third person to hit on me in a very short period of time. I should be happy and I kind of am happy that someone likes me this way.. but.. I'm interested in making new friends and not lovers. What's the actual deal here? Sometimes I find this hard. Am I giving away some sort of signals? Am I being unclear about my intentions? Maybe I need to be more pronounced in what I want..

Anyways, I'm going for pancakes this breakfast. Rye. Thinking seriously of becoming vegetarian. Maybe I should start this today. I've no plans anyway, except for maybe a movie with moms.

Let's do this!

Checking the Recipe

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molecularlight Featured By Owner 6 days ago  Professional General Artist
Thanks for the fav
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ikzi Featured By Owner 6 days ago  Hobbyist General Artist
Love your pic, looks like an awesome technique
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yuuike Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you so much for the watch bby <333! * 7 * :iconmuahplz:
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ikzi Featured By Owner Nov 10, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Yw yuuike, greetings from Scandinavia and have a wonderful day! EmoteLove
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TheSkyInGrey Featured By Owner Oct 17, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for watching ! =P (Razz) 
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ikzi Featured By Owner Oct 17, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Enjoying it, looking forward to seeing your photography develop wink grin 
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TheSkyInGrey Featured By Owner Oct 17, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
=P (Razz) 
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akrasiel Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2014   General Artist
your webcam is so relaxing :aww:
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ikzi Featured By Owner Oct 17, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
y ^^ glad you like it

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DamaiMikaz Featured By Owner Oct 13, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Tnx for the fav :la:
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